"magkatabi tayo sa duyan sa ilalimng buwan
buhangin sa ating mga MATAAAAA..."
OOOOOOOPSSSSS!!!ANCHAKIT NAMAN NUN!!! PAA! HINDI MATA!!! maygali.
nakalimutan ko pala ilagay sa previous entry ko.naglaro kami ng tic tac toe ng seatmate ko since first year na si evan. (ngak.evan???!! omaygas. jerome nalang! hahaha!!! ) nanalo ako sa 3rd round ng game.and that was the time when he said "DIEB*#@%!!!" tas isa pa! "$%^* @#% MAE!!! Hala!!!. though it was just a joke and iam not supposed to be offended, aba, mukha ba akong B*#@%???!!!" watda! Kaya…hinabol ko siya ng sangkatutak na hampassa likod habang tawang-tawa. hehe. syempre, biglaan ang mga pangyayari!maygali. Watda talaga! mga classmates ko naman, loko din. tumatawa habangpaulit ulit na sinasabi ni evan jerome ang mga salitang sabi ni bibs aynagpapabigla sa mga little people na sabay-sabay na nagsasabi ng "ALERT!ALERT!ALERT!" sa utak ko! hehe. omaygas!
after thesis, (zzZZZzz), uwi nako. Ay! nag- picnic pala kami ni bibs ng OUTRAGEOUSLYHOT AND SPICY na CHEEZY na junk food. yeboy. walang tubig tubig!!!oha!sheesh.
"I just don't know what I want...
I am alone, with no one to talk to...
I don't even know what I'd say if I did...
I don't have inspiration for writing...
I am full of despair and anger, and excitement and anxiousness and confusion,all mixed...
I feel like exploding, but with what?
Tears have become a comfort to me...
along with the sadness and grief,
of having you leave me behind...
I wouldn't mind drawing blood...
but what good would that do?
It would only make my friends mad at me,
and I would feel stupid and regretful, afterwards...
I want to find a field where I can run and run and run...
climb a tree, and just let the rain fall down on me
and cry, without being bothered...
and tear up the grass,
not caring that dirt gets beneath my fingernails...
stamp and jump, and fall to the ground
roll around in the mud...
muddy tears...
at least, if dirt gets in my eyes,
I will be able to wash it away, with my ever flowing tears...
I bear scars and wonder if I choose to find a new partner,
will I tell them? What will they say... Re-explain my past to them...
I don't want to be alone,
I want a hug, but no arms are in reach, that are willing...
Why do people commit suicide?
Not individual reasons, but in the world, everything has its place
and reason for happening
we all have burdens and pain,
but why do some kill themselves?
I stay here, to learn.
I appreciate life,
and I like to think
it appreciates me too."
- got this from another person's blog.ginawa niya kasi to last august 17, 2006.
haha. watda.may malungkot na tao pala nung birthday ko. washush.
actually wala sa planoko mag-post tonight kasi i'm running out of things to say.
pero sabi ni God, i have to. lam niya kasi na hindi ako matahimik kaya, gumawa siya ng paraan! haha!!!
andaming coincidences na naganap today.
una ung kay bibs. tungkol kay luna and the bday. hehe. wala lang.
KASALANAN NI JESSICA ANG LAHAT, pati nadin si KAREN.
si kuya nga din eh. si jessica ang suspect.
anu ulet???!!! BENLAT???!!!hehe
tas ung akin naman...
*tungkol kay restituto at ang anak niyang si policarpio
*tungkol kay consolacion at ang monster na si waldo.
hala... i thought it was over. pero dahilkay jessica at karen, i think
they're haunting me again. and i'm scared.='(
Sometimes,I wonder what will happen to me.
Sometimes,I wonder why the world sometimes seems to hate itself.
Sometimes,I wonder why nothing ever seems to change if there are so many waiting.
Sometimes,I wonder when things will make sense.
Sometimes,I wonder who is going to protect me from myself.
Sometimes,I wonder why some people are so self-destructive.
Sometimes,I wonder what other people think is going on around them.
Sometimes,I wonder why so many people around the world are so afraid.
SometimesI’m really scared.
I’mafraid.
SometimesI don’t like life.
Sometimesit’s not fun like it’s supposed to be.
Iwant a refund, or an exchange, or… ngik.
So many questions.
Are you afraid too?
I want company.
pero not now. hehe. bukas, gigising padin ako nangmaaga. magba-bike ako sa buong subdivision bago magsimba. ALONE. rar.
my gums are a bit swollen. tortured akong alambre sa ngipin ko.
"magkatabi tayo sa duyan sa ilalimng buwan
buhangin sa ating mga MATAAAAA..."
O YES.
(-_-)
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